Hi All,
so...here we are at the end of the semester and nothing good is happening. my statistics class is driving me crazy!!! I have no chance of passing even if I hand in my homework and study because I need a 75 on the final to pass and that would take a minor miracle. maybe I was just not meant to ever graduate....I don't even know anymore. I did not spend 4 years of my life in college just to be held back by fucking math. ( yes I am using the f word....get over it folks).
In all this chaos, my poor history class has basically been pushed to the background. I HATE SCHOOL right now. stupid fucking math disability....why can't my brain just work like everyone elses for a a change? When I do try to ask questions in class or answer questions, I get laughed at for getting things wrong. I thought bullying ended in grade school but I guess I am wrong.
In other news, I am having trouble figuring out the creature known as the " normal or neurotypical person". It's sad that everyone is too busy and too involved in themselves and their own lives to care about their family members. It is not that hard to pick up the phone or even send a message on Facebook to just keep in touch. life is too short to treat your family members this way. don't miss out on people's lives.....you never know how long they'll be around and when you do think to pick up the phone, it might be too late. Family is everything....I wish my family understood that.
I don't know....maybe I am desperate for any and all connections. I am an only child ( not by choice) and have no other family here besides mom, dad and aunt and her family. I want to have a big loving family where everyone always has time for everyone and where keeping in touch with family is not considered a time-consuming chore but a privalege. If any of my family members are reading this ( which I sincerely doubt), I'd like to say this to them: I really miss you guys and for those who I don't know well and you know who you are, I'd like to get to know you better. just because we are busy and live far apart is no exuse for not keeping in touch or making time for one another. It should not take a wedding or god-forbid a funeral, for everyone to see each other. let's make time for one another. heard of a family reunion....I think it would be a great thing for us. Life is short and family is everything.
as W.H Auden and Morrie mentioned in Tuesdays with morrie.. " love each other or perish" .
and that's the view from here.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Finally an Update
Here we are: the night before Passover. Passover is not one of my favorite Jewish holidays but I grin and bear it just as I do most things in life. On Tuesday, I get to go to my aunt's house for the Passover sedar. Her sedars are fun but not in the traditional sense of the word. Last years sedar featured my aunt getting up in the middle of the sedar and complaining that the Haggadah that was being used was not religous enough. what ensued was a very funny arguement that even she was laughing at in the end. Hopefully this year's sedar will have its funny moments too.
On the friendship front things are stormy bettween me and M. I wish she could understand that I do want to be her friend but it hurts my feelings when she does not make any effort to hang out with me. I know that we live far apart but when someone is your true friend you make the effort to be there for them. I just got out of a five year relationship and I really needed a friend on the day of the break-up but she was not there for me. I really needed a friend then. M if you are reading this: I want to be your friend. just please show me that you want to be my friend as well. Show me, don't tell me.
A and I hung at at the Meriden mall last Friday with J. A is a great friend and it's thanks to her that I might come back to the Wed night group. She is always there with a smile and she always knows how to buy the best things for the least money. I want to come back to the Wallingford group since D probably thinks that I don't care for it anymore. I really care about the wallingford group and I'll come back there at some point soon.
On the work front, yours truly got to be a historical interperter ( that's fancy speak for Tour guide) at the Noah Webster house this past Saturday. It was so much fun even though I had four groups in a row and no break and I had trouble on the loom. I love being a tour guide and especially working with kids.
just a little while ago, I was sitting around looking up places in Brighton beach and thinking about my cousins J, C, F and T who live there. I really want to go and visit them but J and everyone else are always busy. however, J said her schedule would lighten in May so I might make it down then. It's funny how the first sign that I am missing New York and my cousins is the fact that I am looking at pictures of stores that I dislike going into. The M and I international is one of those places. It is not a bad store, but you don't want to be caught there in rush hour unless you want to be screamed at in Russian just because some lady with a cart load of enough food to feed an army thinks that you are in her space or you took her turn. J lives near it and she says she never goes to shop there unless she really needs to. Good for you J!
in other news, I got tickets for my fifth Idina concert which is going to be in Lenox Mass in July. J and I are going and it should be a great night. I hope Idina does meet and greets this time around. I've already met her but that was almost (gasp! ) 2 years ago. I would love to see Kristin Chenoweth on Broadway in Promises Promises but I don't have the money and I highly doubt that a show with Cheno would have student tickets or have tickets being sold at TCKTs.
so thats the view from here.
Song of the Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EXNWbWqt3AE
On the friendship front things are stormy bettween me and M. I wish she could understand that I do want to be her friend but it hurts my feelings when she does not make any effort to hang out with me. I know that we live far apart but when someone is your true friend you make the effort to be there for them. I just got out of a five year relationship and I really needed a friend on the day of the break-up but she was not there for me. I really needed a friend then. M if you are reading this: I want to be your friend. just please show me that you want to be my friend as well. Show me, don't tell me.
A and I hung at at the Meriden mall last Friday with J. A is a great friend and it's thanks to her that I might come back to the Wed night group. She is always there with a smile and she always knows how to buy the best things for the least money. I want to come back to the Wallingford group since D probably thinks that I don't care for it anymore. I really care about the wallingford group and I'll come back there at some point soon.
On the work front, yours truly got to be a historical interperter ( that's fancy speak for Tour guide) at the Noah Webster house this past Saturday. It was so much fun even though I had four groups in a row and no break and I had trouble on the loom. I love being a tour guide and especially working with kids.
just a little while ago, I was sitting around looking up places in Brighton beach and thinking about my cousins J, C, F and T who live there. I really want to go and visit them but J and everyone else are always busy. however, J said her schedule would lighten in May so I might make it down then. It's funny how the first sign that I am missing New York and my cousins is the fact that I am looking at pictures of stores that I dislike going into. The M and I international is one of those places. It is not a bad store, but you don't want to be caught there in rush hour unless you want to be screamed at in Russian just because some lady with a cart load of enough food to feed an army thinks that you are in her space or you took her turn. J lives near it and she says she never goes to shop there unless she really needs to. Good for you J!
in other news, I got tickets for my fifth Idina concert which is going to be in Lenox Mass in July. J and I are going and it should be a great night. I hope Idina does meet and greets this time around. I've already met her but that was almost (gasp! ) 2 years ago. I would love to see Kristin Chenoweth on Broadway in Promises Promises but I don't have the money and I highly doubt that a show with Cheno would have student tickets or have tickets being sold at TCKTs.
so thats the view from here.
Song of the Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EXNWbWqt3AE
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