another year gone by, memories created and events happy and sad.
whenever a year ends, we must step back and remember all of these things and what we learned from them. Even the most negative events offer lessons to be learned.
such as......relationships that were once great getting torn apart by time and by growing apart. it is no one persons fault that this happens but we learn from it no matter how much it hurts us.
and speaking of relationships and of family, I have had new developments in that area as well.
such as this weekend when I traveled to New York to meet cousins from my mom's side of the family that I have not seen since I was a baby.
what do you say to someone who you have heard about all your life and who you know only from the pictures that you see and stories? I was faced with this issue but I seem to have handled it well and I think that they liked me. I hope that they don't become strangers again and fade back into the fabric of life and of family history. I wish I was closer to the family members that I have known since forever. somehow whenever I visit my New York cousins I never feel like I truly belong amongst them. I wish this was not the case and that they treated me like an equal and not like that immature person who comes to visit once every three months and who they are always glad to see leave. That is one thing I want to work on next year. showing these people that I am not that immature girl anymore and that they can trust me and treat me like an equal. I strengthened a lot of friendships this year such as my friendships with A and M and with the guys from the Wallingford group. even though I can't make it down there for as many dvd nights and meetings as I would like, I am really grateful to these guys for providing me with friendship and accepting me when no one else would.
so here's to a great New Year filled with adventures and new lessons to be learned.
Cheers!
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